Home Again, Home Again ...

Well, here I am, back at my mother's home. Got back from Cedar City Friday morning. Since then I've met my new therapist (a very nice lady, although she does the stereotypical "Hmm, okay, hmmm!" thing and then asks me "So how did that make you feel?") and spent decent time with Tene (Friday night, and all of Saturday).

I saw Ashley! Ashley was my best friend all throughout high school, but afterwards our relationship sorta died. She drifted away from my circle of friends and I didn't know how to go about fixing our broken relationship. But, as luck would have it, she recently got in touch with Tene again, and Saturday night we went out to dinner and watched a movie!

Dinner was so good. We went to David's Kitchen - one of those little hole in the wall restaurants - and had some tasty Chinese food. David's Kitchen has awesome food, I must admit. It was one of the first Chinese restaurants I went to and enjoyed!

After, we all went back to Tene's apartment to watch Transformers (they're robots in disguise!). First time I'd seen it, and I enjoyed it thoroughly. Bumblebee was so cute! I love how the ending was left open, as well.

In other news, because I haven't mentioned it elsewhere, I had to go into the ER Tuesday night. I got sudden pain in my upper abdomen, and when it didn't go away after half an hour I became concerned and ran off to the hospital. I was discharged at 7am (I'd gone in at 2am), and told that it is either an ulcer or something is happening with my gallbladder. I need to have an ultrasound of my gallbladder, and we'll see how it goes from there. I'm guessing ulcer - because the pain has mellowed down a lot (I haven't had another night of the pain like that) and has even completely stopped.

Had some adventures at the ER though. I'm not afraid of needles, but I definitely do not like them. I was okay with getting stuck once (for the IV), but the nurse mentioned that she might have to stick me twice. Already in an emotional state, I panicked. Ended up that all the on-duty nurses decided to come "help" after she asked another nurse (who was really hot ... I wish I could remember his name) to give me the IV.

Well, not much else is going on in my life. Just trying to survive.

MySpace, Facebook, Gaia, and other forms of addiction

It probably isn't a good think that I have as addictive a personality as I do, but I guess that's just life.

I've been on MySpace more in the last three days than I have in as many years! I see how people can be so addicted to it. I'm still mostly using it as a way to keep in touch with people - especially now that I'm moving away from Cedar City to live in Salt Lake again. Facebook is the same, I've been adding so many friends lately. I didn't know I knew that many people!

GaiaOnline receives a visit from me every day, which is pretty typical by now. I've been spending more time on it than I'd like, and I'm trying to "cut down." I wonder if they make a GO patch ...

I visit deviantArt at least twice a day, usually more - I keep checking for comments on my journal there.

There's also LiveJournal and, of course, Blogger, which I've been paying more attention to the last few days than I had in years.

Outside of intarweb realms, I've been addicted to playing on my new DS. Specifically I've been playing Final Fantasy III like a madwoman. I'm lost, though. No clue where to go exactly.

All of these things would be fine, if I did anything else as well. I'm sad and upset, and I'm using all these things as an escape. I realize this is a bad thing to do, but I don't know how to change my behavior. Hopefully living in my mother's house will help me figure that out. I'm sick of how I'm living my life, but I don't know how to change. It sucks.

Header!

I did something creative! First time I've had the ambition to do anything in a decent while. It's a header for this blog, and I'm going to make one for Rats in Pants as well! I couldn't decide whether to put the pen on top or under the words, but I think it looks better above them, and it doesn't obscure them too much. I'm quite proud of how it turned out.

Well, I don't really have much else to say. The image is in .png format, so it probably doesn't show up properly in Internet Explorer, just as information.

No pen nib would be that clean after using it, but I couldn't get it to look right when I was trying to color it.

Idea!

Today I thought of an idea for this blog! The title "Truth in Lies" evokes in me the memory of my first University Creative Writing Course. This course, taught by an awesome professor named Dr. Petersen, had a section of it that was done online, through blogger even! The blog, Stranger Than Walmart, had a series of prompts that we students had to answer each week. It was pretty easy. But there was something in that class that we talked about.

"What is Truth?"

Well, there were a lot of general answers ("Not fiction," "reality," etc) but not what Dr. P was looking for. I don't remember exactly what Dr. P was looking for, actually, but I remember his statement. Walmart is Truth. And, truth is always stranger than fiction.

Truth in Lies was supposed to document my life - More truth than lies, certainly. I've decided to relegate that area to my new sister blog, Rats in Pants. Instead of documenting my life, TiL is going to be a place for me to dump things I learn as I work toward becoming a published author - and beyond!

So, for this blog expect many things - inspirational writing quotes, ideas that I get as I write, prompts, microfiction, anything and everything I can think of that pertains to writing! And if you want updates to my life, RiP is the place to look for that!

Introducing ....

Hello, and welcome to my blog. Just starting out, I'm going to try to post in this as often as possible ... or that I remember. Which I guess is as often as possible.

So! About me! I'm Michelle "Washi" Maxfield, almost 21, Aries born in the Year of the Rabbit. Brown haired, blue eyed. I live in Utah, currently attending Uni (more on that in a bit). I've been diagnosed with Bipolar II/hypomania, and severe depression. I'm on medication, and aside from side effects, doing well. For a while I was happier than I had been in a long time. Now I'm just sorta apathetic.

I'm dating Stephen Weeks, also known as "Tene". He's two years older than me, Cancer, and an Ox. He's a sweet guy, although his job often requires him to travel a lot, and he's often away - but I'm away at school right now, anyway, so ... yeah.

Oright, me! I'm easily distracted, and have a very short memory span lately. I often forget what I'm saying partway through a sentence, and I often have to ask people "What?" when they're talking to me, because the words don't fit, or I forget what they were saying the second their done saying it. It is very frustrating.

School ... well, I'm somewhere between a Sophomore and a Junior at my Uni, but I've had some problems this semester. I'm having to take a medical withdrawal, and I won't be coming back to this University, which makes me sad. Things are too hard when I'm so far from home.

The problems? I, and Tene, believe that these problems are caused by my medications. I'm often tired and I have a hard time waking up in the morning. We're talking I can sleep through 3 separate alarms set on my cellphone, which go off at 15 minute intervals, and stay going for 5 minutes each. Yeah, I can sleep through those. What the heck, right? Aside from that is the apathy - I don't care that I'm not getting up, I don't care that I'm not doing things. I know that I should care, but I don't. Also, the forgetfulness thing. That's somewhat new. I'm working on getting off of the medications, but my doctor is ... not a nice word ... and I'm hoping to find someone who knows what the heck they're doing with my medications, instead of the things my current doctor does. Again, frustrating.

Umm, non-complaining things ... I enjoy writing, it's my main hobby and joy. Lately I haven't been doing so well at it, but I hope that gets better as my meds are fixed. I also enjoy drawing, although I don't believe I'm very good at it - I hope that as I draw more I will improve. I have my own webcomic, Kyoot! which is semi-autobiographical, but I'm hoping the characters (personas of my friends and I) take on their own "lives" eventually - like what happened with MacHall before it closed, and Applegeeks now.

There's another thing - I looooove webcomics. There are a little over 30 that I currently watch, but my favorites are Applegeeks, MegaTokyo, Ctrl-Alt-Del, Questionable Content and Dominic Deegan. Not necessarily in that order :) I've also recently fallen in love with Erfworld over at Giant in the Playground. Dwagons are so cute :) I'm thinking of making a plushie of one.

I enjoy doing things with my hands - making and creating things. I want to learn how to sew, as well as crochet and possibly knit. For a while I was interested in cross-stitch, and I could do that again. I also enjoy making hats and scarves on these looms I got a few years ago. They're very nice. I want to learn how to cook, but so far all I can really make aside from packaged foods and pasta are some gooey chocolate cookies, and pull-apart sticky buns.

I wouldn't be a girl if I didn't enjoy shopping - and I do enjoy shopping. A lot. I love cute clothes. Tene has mentioned that I've been becoming more and more "girly" lately. I fear he is correct. But that's because I'm not athletic, at all, and I would rather ... well, I don't know. I have no interest in makeup or other "girly" things, but I like to dress up and look nice. When I'm not apathetic of course.

I like playing on my computer and playing games - on my PS2, GBA-SD, and once I get it, I'm sure I will enjoy games on my DS. I really want an X-Box 360, as well as a Wii, but those are in the future purchases. I have no interest in the PS3 at this time, too expensive and not many games for it that look interesting. I also play games on my computer, but not as many.

I'm an anime geek. I'm currently into One Piece and Bleach, although I really like Ouran High School Host Club - I've just watched all of it. I like reading manga too, of course, and I really like Tsubasa Chronicles and Tramps Like Us.

I was raised in the LDS Church from birth, but now identify as an atheist. I want Truth, but I no longer believe that there is an Ultimate Truth. We'll see what the future holds for this.