Jobs, Birthdays, and Crazy Meds

Hello again, at last! I post after nearly a month of silence! I promise to be better about blogging in the future :D

So, good news in my life: I've got a job! I work at a company called APS as a receptionist and data-entry clerk. I'm still training, but I really like the people I work with, as well as the general atmosphere. I don't have many hours, but the hours I do have are great for when I start school this summer (or fall, depending on some other stuff).

Also, I am now 21! I am completely and utterly legal! Which doesn't change much except allowing me to purchase alcohol. Which I don't drink. Or gamble, but I don't have money ... hmmm ...

My girls are both doing well, yay for rattiness! They're so cute, although they're back into their small cage. First paycheck is going to go toward buying a new, larger cage. Joy.

Bad news? I'm getting off of my crazy meds (Lamictal and Zoloft), which is taking a while. My doctor finally said it was okay to lower my Zoloft and then go off, and we'd look at Lamictal later.

The good part about this is I'm feeling alive, my creativeness is coming back in force, and I feel more energetic and - in general - happy. I can't say for certain, but I think I've started laughing more, which is good.

The bad part is that I'm finally off of my Zoloft, and I've been having the worst withdrawal symptoms. Headache (constant, piercing, and it seems immune to painkiller), dizziness, tingling in my hands and feet ... I've had horrible nightmares, night sweats, and general problems sleeping. I'm tired all the time (which could be from mono ... ), and it 's hard for me to concentrate. I hate it. The headache is the worst part. That and the tingling.

Well, that's all for now,
Fare thee well!

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Home Again, Home Again ...

Well, here I am, back at my mother's home. Got back from Cedar City Friday morning. Since then I've met my new therapist (a very nice lady, although she does the stereotypical "Hmm, okay, hmmm!" thing and then asks me "So how did that make you feel?") and spent decent time with Tene (Friday night, and all of Saturday).

I saw Ashley! Ashley was my best friend all throughout high school, but afterwards our relationship sorta died. She drifted away from my circle of friends and I didn't know how to go about fixing our broken relationship. But, as luck would have it, she recently got in touch with Tene again, and Saturday night we went out to dinner and watched a movie!

Dinner was so good. We went to David's Kitchen - one of those little hole in the wall restaurants - and had some tasty Chinese food. David's Kitchen has awesome food, I must admit. It was one of the first Chinese restaurants I went to and enjoyed!

After, we all went back to Tene's apartment to watch Transformers (they're robots in disguise!). First time I'd seen it, and I enjoyed it thoroughly. Bumblebee was so cute! I love how the ending was left open, as well.

In other news, because I haven't mentioned it elsewhere, I had to go into the ER Tuesday night. I got sudden pain in my upper abdomen, and when it didn't go away after half an hour I became concerned and ran off to the hospital. I was discharged at 7am (I'd gone in at 2am), and told that it is either an ulcer or something is happening with my gallbladder. I need to have an ultrasound of my gallbladder, and we'll see how it goes from there. I'm guessing ulcer - because the pain has mellowed down a lot (I haven't had another night of the pain like that) and has even completely stopped.

Had some adventures at the ER though. I'm not afraid of needles, but I definitely do not like them. I was okay with getting stuck once (for the IV), but the nurse mentioned that she might have to stick me twice. Already in an emotional state, I panicked. Ended up that all the on-duty nurses decided to come "help" after she asked another nurse (who was really hot ... I wish I could remember his name) to give me the IV.

Well, not much else is going on in my life. Just trying to survive.

MySpace, Facebook, Gaia, and other forms of addiction

It probably isn't a good think that I have as addictive a personality as I do, but I guess that's just life.

I've been on MySpace more in the last three days than I have in as many years! I see how people can be so addicted to it. I'm still mostly using it as a way to keep in touch with people - especially now that I'm moving away from Cedar City to live in Salt Lake again. Facebook is the same, I've been adding so many friends lately. I didn't know I knew that many people!

GaiaOnline receives a visit from me every day, which is pretty typical by now. I've been spending more time on it than I'd like, and I'm trying to "cut down." I wonder if they make a GO patch ...

I visit deviantArt at least twice a day, usually more - I keep checking for comments on my journal there.

There's also LiveJournal and, of course, Blogger, which I've been paying more attention to the last few days than I had in years.

Outside of intarweb realms, I've been addicted to playing on my new DS. Specifically I've been playing Final Fantasy III like a madwoman. I'm lost, though. No clue where to go exactly.

All of these things would be fine, if I did anything else as well. I'm sad and upset, and I'm using all these things as an escape. I realize this is a bad thing to do, but I don't know how to change my behavior. Hopefully living in my mother's house will help me figure that out. I'm sick of how I'm living my life, but I don't know how to change. It sucks.

Header!

I did something creative! First time I've had the ambition to do anything in a decent while. It's a header for this blog, and I'm going to make one for Rats in Pants as well! I couldn't decide whether to put the pen on top or under the words, but I think it looks better above them, and it doesn't obscure them too much. I'm quite proud of how it turned out.

Well, I don't really have much else to say. The image is in .png format, so it probably doesn't show up properly in Internet Explorer, just as information.

No pen nib would be that clean after using it, but I couldn't get it to look right when I was trying to color it.